I constantly think about dying. I know I won't actually hurt myself but I do get the feeling of wanting to die. It's gone way down lately, so I don't actually want to die, but I do think about it a lot. What would be the least painful way for me to die for my family (if that makes any sense)? How would the people in my life react? How long would it take for them to move on and not cry every time they think about me? I usually just power through it or wait it out. Hope you feel better.