Thank you all for responding to my post about this....At work today, I felt a bit embarrassed that I posted here about it.

Since I DID tell him, when I declined to see him, that it was for my emotional well-being, since the previous in-person visits (twice) had left me reeling and feeling romantic, taking a long time to get over. Also, I told him that I realized how I was substituting a real-life relationship for this online correspondence between us, which had come to be more safe and satisfying that risking another debacle in real life.
He apologized in one of his last emails, and so....maybe he is just doing me a favor.

On the other hand, I feel cynical toward him. Last night, I had yet another of my recurring "abandonment" dreams about him, which I've had all my adult life. This experience of not hearing from him is just like the dreams...a predictor of things, I guess. I will have to come to terms with this.

Hearing from you all about this has helped me immensely.
Love to all of you!
Patty