I have been feeling pretty darn good lately. I've given myself pats on the back, "atta girls", and general "you rock" kind of praise. I've even been off my meds for, like, 6 months, and haven't seen my T in twice as long. But that all is starting to change...again. I actually thought, I kind of missed that old feeling of depression, what was I gonna do with all this new-found energy and motivation?! Well, not to worry, it's not gonna last. The dark web of my mind is gonna drag me back into the cave. My kids will scorn me. My husband will ignore me. I'll hate myself, and drink, and hurt, and wish I could.just.disappear. Lonely. I used to have friends. I thought I had friends. But the only friend it seems that will have me is this dark shadow.