I’ve been reading this thread for a while.

I️ am terrified of doctors or medical people in general. There are reasons that I️ would rather not say.

I️ do have issues that I️ do know need attention, but I️ choose not to have them addressed.

I️ really don’t think that my absence would really matter other than the fact that I️ wouldn’t be the provider of something that someone wants from me.

I️ may, no, I️ would be missed for that.

The thought of being not here, a place I’ve never felt welcomed, would be welcoming to me.

I️ would not do anything to make that happen, but if it came about that way, I️ don’t know.

I️ want to believe I️ have a purpose here and I️ want to achieve that.

I️ would just like to go home when that purpose is achieved and I’ve done what I’m put here to do.