I should add that we are in sort of a bdsm-type relationship. I think it´s me who needs to either accept our relationship as it is, or move on. That´s the difficult choice. Not sure if bdsm is an okay topic to bring up here, but it felt like necessary information. He´s my "dominant" and i´m the submissive one. I actually do enjoy that a lot, i just don´t enjoy the uncertainty and i wish there was more love in our interactions.