I know her well after so long. She gets defensive at times and then blames things on my diagnosis because it’s so much easier. She’s only willing to try so hard and go so far but she won’t inconvenience herself at all for me. After i sent her the text she did respond saying to make my appointment. She said that she knows that she didn’t help the situation. She expects me to be at my next appointment which is next week Wednesday. She never responded to anything else or said anything about my coping skills or let me see what i can do. She just disappeared. There are certain words that she won’t “deal” with. Once you tell her that you can’t eat like I have felt at times with my eating disorder then she ignores me. If i get destructive in any shape or form or tell her that i will then she disappears. To her these are choices and she won’t be part of it. So she basically leaves at the worse time. I distance myself then. It just proves my point.

When i came back from my last break she said that everyone is on their own journey and I’m on my own. I sort of do my thing. She doesnt ask and i don’t tell her. Then i vent about whatever and she tells me that I’m extreme and that’s our session. I’m trying to build trust in order to voice myself but every time i feel good about things then something happens.