Chocolate you are right I have been asked to take my emotions and put them a box the only problem is I have never been able to do that...I have always worn my heart on my sleeve and that is going to change...

This box is going to hold my love for my wife safe and strong...until she decides that it is time for that reunion. I am ready to be back with my family and my kids are ready for me to be back with them...however the most important person is not ready and until she is I must respect her wishes. The problem is I run my mouth way too much (emotionally) because I am lonely and I want someone to talk to...before I did not really talk to my wife nor did I listen...now I can talk and listen...but I am not hearing what is really needed. You are right she has not divorced me and maybe she is making an investment in our relationship...So that all being said...no more of my posts will be about my relationship. I have put the chain around that box...and I am going to look at my path...and even if I stumble I will pick myself back up and keep down that path carrying that box on my back.