I’m slightly worse today in terms of depression. I see the program pdoc next Tuesday and my therapist sometime next week. I just saw her yesterday but all we did was the initial evaluation. Next week we will do treatment plan.

I don’t know if meds will help is the thing. When I get like this it seems No meds can touch it. I can increase Wellbutrin. But that hasn’t helped In the past. I’ve only been on the increased depakote for a few days so maybe if I give it Time it will help.

I’m giving myself one small thing to do a day. If I can do that one thing I can mope for the rest of the day. Like yesterday it was to cook a real dinner. Today I must take a shower. I made it to php too. I really just wanted to go back to bed.

I don’t want to do ECT again, I really don’t