A therapist double booked on me probably 30 years ago -- I got enraged -- didn't hurt or anything, just was enraged -- and she recoiled in fear. Couldn't handle it -- couldn't handle me. So I left.

It started me on a journey to try to find a therapist who COULD handle me. Never did.

Talk about "inner child" -- mine was in a tantrum. And frozen in a tantrum.

But it's only rage, a human emotion and one of the response systems to threat. To being hurt. To being overlooked when you are a child and need, or feel you need, people.

The other part of this thread's title is "feelings of abandonment". It may not be much, just anonymous posts on the internet, but I have found this forum very helpful for me when I feel like the reality is that I WAS abandoned and rejected -- by family and then by therapy in general, not just individual therapists, because the system and the theory don't address the kind of situation I had.

Nevertheless, maybe another therapist can help, Sarmas. Maybe not. Maybe you could try insisting on a free session or two and see how that goes. May not work, and that could be informative for you. However you go forward, I'm wishing you the best!!