I'm right there with you. I am an adult. I am 26. I am a professional. All within this last lapse I had to drop out of my PhD program, went insane and totaled my car, self-medicated with alcohol, and got suspended from my teaching position for a month. I feel like I worked so hard to show everyone I am normal and I can handle all this, to show them I can't. I fail at life. I know the feeling and I'm so sorry you have to go through it. You seem like a wonderful person.