sorry to hear it is still so rough for you, SD.

in other news, i feel broken. my brain is sludge, and if i knew how to cry properly, i'd be crying on and off all the time. each day is an eternity, and i have to somehow visit my mom and her partner next weekend for thanksgiving. i just don't want to do it anymore. i want to quit my job, never see my family again even though they are fine and just wither away into the ether. is that so much to ask?