bioChE,

I feel like I found my soul mate regarding marijuana. We are just at different stages... There's a side that is only unveiled when I get a buzz. I also feel like I was born to smoke pot... You're right, I am in a state of mourning.

I totally agree with what you wrote and congratulations on 2 years of stability. Let's support each other in our goal to be free of the menace of delusions and hospitals.

I quit smoking cigarettes over 2 years ago and have stuck with it so I know I can do this. I also didn't smoke pot for over 25 years and had no episodes during that time. I quit weed when I was 19 or 20 after having what was called at the time a 'nervous breakdown'. Somehow I got my act together after a week or two and managed not to flunk out of university that term and went on to a successful career for those 25 years.

Maybe it is a coincidence that all my breakdowns were when i was smoking weed, but that seems unlikely. Thank you for your understanding. It means a lot to me.