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how do i convince myself she isnt "going" anywhere and she doesnt hate me?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Just by getting periodic reassurance and consistent behavior from her. Each week she sees you she is there, hasn't gone anywhere, and is accepting. Hopefully, with time, her consistency and reliability will be internalized by you. Maybe you two can work out a little closing ceremony at the end of each session where she gives you some reassurance she will be there next week.

I think it would be good if you told your Mom how helpful therapy has been for you. You can give her some concrete examples (e.g. I am less depressed, I am not as withdrawn, I can talk easily about my problems to my therapist, I am less scared of crossing bridges, or whatever you are working on). I have a 13 year old daughter in therapy and I would love to hear such words from her. As the one who pays for her therapy, I wonder from time to time, "is this helping her?", "Is this hurting her?", "is this worth it?", etc. Parents want to do the best they can for their kids, but sometimes it's hard to know if what we are doing is the right thing or helping. So please let your mom know!