So I recently downloaded the meetup app to see what kind of groups they have in my area. I figure it's a good way to maybe make friends. Anyways I came across a group called cuddle collective. Its a group of people who participate in cuddling therapy with each other. It's run by a psychologist. She focuses on the importance of human connection. It is something I find very interesting and something I would like to give a try. After doing a little research on it, I feel like I could benefit from it. I feel like it could possibly help with some of my needs. I'm a pretty open-minded person. I crave connection with people. I'm not good at being alone and this year has been terrible. I don't have anyone but my husband and kids so this seemed like an awesome idea. So I brought it up to my husband, explained it to him and of course he does not like it or agree and doesn't want me to go because why do I want to or feel the need to cuddle strangers. I get that it may seem unusual. But he keeps telling me that it's weird and he also stated under his breath, " some more weird ***** I have to put up with from you for awhile." This of course hurt my feelings. I thought that I had finally found a way to maybe channel my inner self and needs for feeling connected to others but no because I don't want to dishonor him or hurt him anymore. Im still coming to terms with being non monogamous in a monogamous relationship trying to find other ways to feel like I can still connect and experience love with others in a non romantic way. This seemed the way to maybe have that. But I'm starting to think I should just give it up entirely.