I'm trying to work every angle in education regarding jobs that I apply for, with no luck just yet. A gal I work the retail job with works for a nonprofit and told me to apply for a poorly paid job there, because people get promoted there quickly. So, I thanked her and told her I'd read up on her nonprofit organization to see if it may be a good fit. I'm used to taking the wrong jobs to make ends meet, which my professional resume reflects unfortunately with my work history. I just don't want to keep making the wrong decision regarding jobs, all the time.

I could try to get freelance writing jobs, but as a side gig to the 2nd retail job, until I could do it more frequently for more money. Who knows. Maybe I've used up my years that mattered, to find my true purpose, and it's too late for me at this point, to continue that journey. Maybe I should just say ***** it, and do what I'm currently doing for the rest of my years. Pffft. I did find out from my student loan lender, that if I stay on my repayment plan until I'm 61, the rest of my student loans will be dismissed. Um, I hope so because by then it would be $500,000. Like, my social security when I retire would only cover my rent and that's it.

There is a small group of part-timers who are over 60 years of age, at the retail store where I work. I feel terrible for them, because they work at other places like grocery stores, etc. during the day, and then do this retail job at night. I look at them and think, "this is my path..." Morose, I know, but it's how I feel right now. I will be working 2 jobs for the rest of my life as punishment for the stupid mistakes I made in my 20s and 30s with regards to choosing a path for myself, and sticking with it. Whoops.