That's not true. If BPD people make the world a brighter place why do people hate us and run away from us? If we were meant to be this way, why are we classified as abnormal? I've ruined two people now. I've scarred two people for life and I was just being myself. I don't even have the normal addictions and substance abuse that usually comes with this disorder and I still manage to **** everything up anyway. The first time I didn't know I had BPD yet, but ignorance is NOT innocence. And this time I knew I had it and worked at it, but STILL destroyed a person. And this person was most precious to me. He was the first person in my life I related to and felt I belonged with I've never had anything near to that before, not even with my parents. I can't keep doing this and I be alone either. I have two dreams in life: 1. To achieve my career goal by finishing and publishing my magnum opus and 2. To find I life-partner who is monogamous and wants to share life with me exploring the world and going on adventures. At this point both are laughable. I'm so angry and tired!