I really need support right now. I'm between therapists and psychiatrists right now and I'm having a hard time for many reasons right now.

This time of year is hard for me because half of family has died and I miss them so much.

Now my dad who has been mostly out of my life since I was a baby showed up and I let him stay in our house but he's not contributing anything towards our household expenses.

And I'm hurting over having to switch pharmacies. I asked the pharmacist if he was open to going for coffee with me and he said yes. But, I think we agreed to wait a year after I change pharmacies. But now I am sad about switching pharmacies even though that means that I will have a chance at being friends with him.

I want to stay in touch with him because he's a genuine good person and he's awesome to talk to. So even though that means that I have to let go of him as a pharmacist in order for us to be friends in the future, I know that it will be worth it in the future. I don't know why I'm sad about having to change pharmacies because he said that we could go for coffee after a year to allow time to pass after I was a customer at the store.

I really need a therapist to process everything with.

The huge problem is that since I'm completely off of my medications awaiting my appointment with a new psychiatrist on Monday, I can't get motivated to even call the new T's office to schedule an appointment. I had to miss the last appointment that I had scheduled with him.

I have read his reviews and he has great reviews.

I'm so nervous about starting therapy again.

But, my stress level is very high right now and since I'm off of my ADHD medication, my ADHD is coming at me full force at the worst possible time. I'm trying to get things organized but I'm just overwhelmed.

I really need support and encouragement right now because I feel so alone and I'm hurting really badly.