I have been to a therapist and diagnosed with major depression and social and general anxiety. I tend no I do stay in my house and avoid contact with the outside, I have no desire to engage with people outside of my house. I remember when I was younger I was shy scared of new things yearned for friends 20 something years to now I hate dealing with people I hate the stress of life period I fear death and have no desire to kill myself but I want nothing to do with people or the steps of living life. Thing is I strongly believe its all unnecessary even though there's a voice telling its Wrong. What I HATE the most is I love my kids but interacting with them is so annoying I try to listen when they speak but I get so irritated that do nothing but talk about useless things like what a kid at school said or what if questions like what if I wasn't born mom or what if the sky was yellow or asking me about things they already know in general IT irritates me when people talk. It makes me agitated and angry and I hate feeling that way I want to be present but I can't its a battle in my head listen to what their saying omg why are they talking about this **** I don't care to hear it its not just my kids though its people. *****ing complaining raised voices the sound of things banging in the kitchen it irks the hell out of me. Don't even get me started on people arguing back and forth I need a bubble soundless. This isn't normal.