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Originally Posted by spidytolerate
You are right, i know that deep inside. That my relationship with him isn´t what i want or need. I keep hoping he´ll change. He was a loving boyfriend before after all, he has the potential.
I feel quite stupid and pathetic for giving him sexual things and letting him call me certain things. Never thought i´d be "that kind of girl".
It´s like i´m addicted to him, and i know i will never be able to fully leave him.
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Why do you say you can never fully leave him? My dear, please love yourself enough and respect and value your own needs and desires to know that this
isn't all that you want and deserve.
My guess is he won't change... once he's pulled back into a state of friends with benefits AND broke up with you because of your mental health issues previously, most likely he is not going to switch back and fall in love again. He's already made it clear that the mental health issues you face are a dealbreaker... so he's downgraded the relationship.
WHY not be with someone who can accept you for ALL that you are? Please value yourself more. You're better than this AND deserve far better than this. You're mistreating yourself and are accepting sooooo much less than what you deserve. It pains me to see you doing so....
((((((hugs))))))