I have been thinking to myself and I keep asking myself why I keep thinking this person is my salvation for happiness. I feel like I have an addiction to him. I try to enjoy my life but without this person, my life is empty. I'm probably bottling it all inside, I broke down in tears yesterday. The articles about letting him go don't help, they bring back painful memories of my ex. I'm trying to keep myself busy. I've started to do Japanese lessons online and I want to do more stuff that make me happy. I don't want this pain to last forever. Him having a gf and I don't, doesn't help. I somehow still wait for him. urghh I just wanted to vent. How can I live life like my old self again? It's like a part of me have been broken. I'm probably going round in circles about this.