Perhaps think more on ALL the things in life that fulfill you and make you happiest - then pursue those things. Taking Japanese lessons is a great first step!

Perhaps even create a list of happy things in life for yourself.... it is important to fill ourselves up in life and to be happy on our own, without dependence on another for our happiness. That is only a recipe for disappointment and pain.

So the key, even though you're staying busy which is great (!), is to fill your life up with all the things you love and enjoy the most. Then you can be perfectly happy all on your own.

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