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Originally Posted by spidytolerate
That was very kindly said of you  Thank you. Itīs true i donīt think much of myself. He calls me stupid a lot, and thatīs something iīm really starting to believe. I was really struggling before i had him, but at least i had my own identity, strength, self esteem. Iīm much healthier mentally now and i want those things back. I think i can do it. If i stop depending so much on a 19 year old boy who just wants physical things. I donīt think iīm ready for a partner, but having a best friend would be awesome.
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oh sweetheart, you are accepting verbal abuse from him. What he says to you is NOT acceptable. He is mistreating you. NO ONE deserves to ever be called stupid!!!! AND.. worst of all, you're starting to believe him. This is all false, and is a way to denigrate you, to demean you and to make you feel less than. You deserve FAR better.
If you used to have your own identity, strength and self esteem, you can certainly obtain that again. I KNOW that being single can be lonely and painful sometimes, but the self respect you get from walking AWAY from abuse and disrespect is immeasurable.
Please rethink this relationship, for your own mental health, your dignity and self-worth. You can do FAR better and deserve to be treated FAR better than this. Please think about it.
((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))