Going through some diagnosis denial again. I know it's pointless to do this, but it's been so long since I've had anything resembling a true manic episode, and it seems like my therapist is the only one thinking I actually have this. I can tell my pdoc thinks I'm making it all up based on the vibes he gives off and the fact that he and my physician list me as Bipolar NOS while my therapist says I have type 1. Weird.

I wish I didn't have to go through these phases so often, and thinking about just treating the symptoms seems to make it worse based off of how few episodes I've had. Seriously, I can only recall one time in my life where I had an extended period of time that could possibly be considered an episode, but even then that's stretching it I think.