UGH UGH UGH!

I have now reached the point where i am mostly past the anger and am now missing my ex. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW, he was horrible to me in so many ways, but isn't this aspect at least in part inevitable? After all we had a connection, a deep connection, or so I thought, and we shared a strong love for one another.

I suppose this phase is only natural after the ending of a relationship of any kind, even if it was abusive.

I miss the good parts of him, I miss him sending me sweet text messages in the middle of the night telling me how important and special I am to him and how much he loves me. I miss the closeness we shared. I miss going to him for support when I need it. I miss THOSE things.

Then again, he turned out to be verbally and emotionally abusive and like poison for me. So of course, I keep reminding myself of this so that I don't miss the good parts as much.

What a process!!! Guess this is just going to take a while. Wish it would just hurry itself up! I want to get past this!!!!