Oh no, it definitely wasn't UNC. I am in Rocky Mount, my hometown, that I absolutely hate. Ironically, the only reason I came back here was because my job in Greensboro was being phased out, and Rocky Mount had the only other state job in my classification. But since I have been here, my mental health has gotten significantly worse - another reason I swore not to come back when I left at 16. I was considering Duke - the seizure specialist I saw is at Duke and my psychiatrist I will see is at Duke - but that's good to know about UNC. I surprisingly was seen pretty quickly in Rocky Mount, I just can't stand their psych facility.

But my head is swimming. I just want to go, now, just leave, but we only have one car. And I have to take my oldest daughter to Raleigh tomorrow for an MRI since she started having migraines. I wanted to just go tonight, but my youngest had running club, I was supposed to take my oldest to gymnastics tonight to watch her for a change, but my husband took her. I have some chest inflammation, and problems breathing, and he thought I wasn't feeling well because of that. He came back asking if he had done something wrong! Are you freaking kidding me? I am on the verge of mental collapse, and he has the nerve to think this is about him. He asks if I can get on a cancellation list for the psychiatrist. No! That won't help! I just told him I am looking for a hospital away from here, he really hasn't had anything to say about that. And he is normally supportive, I don't know what's going on.

I am so done with this.