I have been ip 16 times. Yes, 16. I'm fraught with issues at times.

Almost all have been voluntary. A few were voluntary but highly
Suggested by a t so.....wasn't really voluntary. They just gave me
The Option of not being escorted there. I've been on 72
Hour holds twice. Once when high school sent me and said I had to
Be evaluated before returning to school and almost did an MIW and the other after I od'd.

I have found its much better to go on your own accord. I choose
To go to an ip close to me which I live in the sticks so that's the nearest city, 40 minutes.
My pdoc works at that ip so I like seeing him ip because I know him and he takes my feelings into account during treatment.

I hope you feel better soon. We are here for you!