Hello Br1yan: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I don't know as there is much I can offer with regard to this. From what you wrote, it sounds as though, perhaps, you're simply going to have to choose... difficult as that may be. Perhaps some other members, here on PC, may have had some similar experiences they can share, along with how they solved their dilemmas.

I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!