Oooh, good point - I think you are right and it's feeling like I am not making a responsible choice that's bothering me... and also feeling guilty that I am not working very hard... and wondering about how much I have damaged my career options by repeatedly making lazy choices like this over the past ten years... oh well!

I'm in good company. I talked to two coworkers yesterday. One is taking my approach, doing what she has to and nothing more, actively looking but not aggressively. The other says she will still make things better where she can as you never know, not looking at all because she wants the summer off