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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
Protector parts are always so hard to hear and connect with.
For me, they feel scary and I don't know how to approach them.
This part, for me, takes me away but I want to hear it and understand it.
It's important to me and it has helped me, even though I don't understand that.
My question is,
"How do you connect with a protector part that you are afraid of being connected with?"
There is the desire (analytical) to sort this out, but the fear of really knowing it.
I believe that I am fueling the protector part and trying to analyze and sort it out at the same time.
Does that make sense?
It sounds like a bind, but I don't really know how to work with it and understand it.
Just curious.
Thank you for hearing me.
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in my system the word protector alter was all of my alters. they were there to protect me from harm, from remembering the abuse I went through, to protect me from the elements, to protect me from my own emotions,... anything I was unable to handle they dealt with...
that said most of my system I had no awareness that they were there, I found out I had DID after I grew up and was in college. Those that I did hear I just assumed was normal and how everyone was.
After diagnosis my treatment providers and I did not try to connect with or hear the others that I was not already co conscious of. we just let them continue on doing and being what ever their sense of agency was. We (my treatment providers and I) felt that to force co consciousness with alters could do more harm then good to me. We chose the more natural approach of knowing when it was time for them to be co conscious (connect/ talk ) with me it would happen. not developing co consciousness (connection/ hearing/ talking / awareness) of those that didnt "connect" as you call it, did not stop the healing process for me. we just let them do what and why they were created.