I like you, VO. And I like you replying to the critical replies. Sounds like you're finding this a place where you can stand up for yourself.

Can you elaborate on "that raised voice" and it's impact on you? One goal I would have for myself is that I could tolerate female therapists (and other females) disdain for me without. . .whatever it is that I do in response to that. I think it's called, or used to be called, "developing a psychological skin". However, skin can't grow well if there is infection in a "wound" underneath, which is what I have been "working on" in therapy for years, without much success, and with some T's just making the "infection" worse.

I have had some success just processing the damage from the last T's disdain and rejection of me, as I have discussed. And think I would/might be OK at this point if I could find a non-toxic, non-rejecting social environment to let the skin grow naturally in. But I'm old and it's kind of hard to find at my age. (Still working on it, just saying. . .)

What do you do when you get hurt during university? Does it disrupt your ongoing relationships with people there? Have you considered a support group or something like that at your university? Or, some schools even have "free" counseling, I think. Have you considered that? If it doesn't work out, then you could just stop.

Oh, well, maybe none of this will be helpful to you. In which case, you can just ignore it or tell me so. Best wishes.