I am very stressed about the holidays. Actually, I've been quite depressed lately. My husband and I are traveling (alone) to Florida for a beach vacation for Thanksgiving. I'm hoping that once we're there I will be able to relax and enjoy it. My pdoc has been modifying my Seroquel XR in an effort to calm the depression.

I am very stressed that as soon as my husband and I return from Florida he is going alone to Europe for business for 9 days. I dread being alone. I have planned some things to do, visits from people, my pdoc and tdoc appointment, but I'm still nervous.

Christmas will soon follow the above. This may sound like a bah humbug, but I wish we could skip the Christmas tree, but hubby wouldn't hear of it. I'd be willing to decorate a little, and maybe have a mini-tree, but that won't be. Christmas Eve is nice because hubby and I spend it alone, but Christmas day is stressful with my dad and siblings. This will be the first Christmas without my youngest nephew. He died by suicide this past June.

I hate buying presents! I'd be very happy not to get presents myself if I could get out of buying them. Instead, I'd rather bake some cookies or Christmas breads and give them away. I have no kids, so that's not an issue for me.