In general I don't have a good answer. I don't have any significant goals in life, nor is there anyone I love, really. Given my social phobia and fear of intimacy I'm not even sure that love is something I want.

I guess it's the fact that I still have really good days now and then. Like weekends when it doesn't rain. Especially when I can go backpacking or skiing or something like that. When I'm completely alone on top of a mountain, far, far away from society and its absurd expectations, I actually feel extremely alive and happy.