So do I. About stupid, irrelevant every things. I lie because I feel like I'm protecting myself. I lie because of the bad decisions I've made. I lie to feel like maybe all of it is better than it seems.
Lying probably makes it all worse. I know what I would like to be, but choosing is different and difficult and more detached than I can ever achieve. You helped me though. "We all have a reason to go on". I suppose I have reasons I don't choose to see sometimes. dark times