Thanks for saying you don't consider me a downer n that you appreciate my words.

You said one of the things that bothers you about the guy who offered more work is he doesn't like cooking. Would you be adverse to maybe setting aside meals he could just "warm up" for him? Or maybe on those days - have sandwiches (ham or egg salad or bologna) and salads (garden or potato or macaroni), easy things to "whip up"? Things that are mostly already "pre-packaged" n just awaiting assembly type of thing.

You also seem worried about "how" and "what" the attendants do for him. Perhaps give them an outline of what it is you expect? Show them how you expect it done and how often.

As far as your psychiatrist - he sounds like a jerk. You are allowed an "off day" without it meaning you have a "new diagnosis". You are under a lot of stress. You are not getting the rest you need. That causes mood swings and he should know that better than anyone else. I am sorry you were treated poorly. *hugs* You say the mood swings have been there since before this. Since before you met you SO or just since before you started taking care of him? Has there been a time in your life you can say you were not severely stressed n if so during that time were the mood swings present?

I don't see you as challenging everything - just explaining more clearly how your life really is. I just don't want to be coming across in bad ways n I feel I do that a lot these days.

I really would be cautious of CraigsList.