hi everyone...

i had this question i hope you can help me with. I've been depressed a very long time and during it all, i was mostly sad, with an accent of sad.... but ive known so many, including my mom (who i care for) who seem to have depression accented by anger?

the problem for me is everytime i get around her in this frequent mood, i have to be exteremly careful what i say, how i say it...

she becomes very difficult to help in this stage... mumbles and i cant understand what she's saying so i have to ask her again and again what she's saying... instead of speaking up next time though its the same charade over and over...

and she acts extrememly unsatisfied or appreciative... like im just in the way... then she needs something and her whole attitude changes... becomes caring and thoughtful..

ive been on this rollercoaster so much... i get real tired of trying to help and being returned to the bottom of the food chain again once her needs are met...

i love my mom and want to help her, but this really doesnt help...

i know there's little that can be done to help unless she wants to, but it seems its never going to change for her..

i just needed to vent... thanks..