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Originally Posted by tinamehl5
I'm new here and didn't mean to sound as if I'm trivializing your pain. I've been through a lot; a rape, domestic violence, and my family stuff. I often feel like well, here it comes again. I have just recently realized the value of life, and I'm excited about it. But feeling that hasn't kept me from wondering how the heck do I do this? How do I live? But I do feel strongly that we touch others lives SO much more than we think. I worked in a soup kitchen and a homeless guy, Jeff came in to eat. He was so quiet. But when he was there, we knew it. He ended his life and we missed him. There is more to us than just a bag of flesh. There is a spirit that you can feel, and miss. I hope we can keep talking. I'd like to get to know you.
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You did not really trivialize my pain - just misunderstood parts of it. That's why I explained it better for you. I too have been raped - on 3 different occasions, my violin teacher tried to molest me, I was sexually harassed to the point of physical safety, emotionally neglected, verbally n emotionally n psychologically abused, some slight physical abuse, forced to give my only child up for adoption through no fault of my own, and victim to armed robbery. Yes, I too have been through many things. There comes a point in your life When you are just - tired. It isn't that I don't understand everyone has an impact on everyone else. I do. That's one of the reasons I do not suicide - though not a main reason. It is just that I am plain tired. I had 3 yrs of rest from all of this kind of treatment. To think of going back to it - is to much. I am 43. It started when my mom died when I was 12. I am worn. I want a life or I want a death. I no longer want torment. To give me life n then snatch it away after 3 years is cruel. I did nothing to deserve it. I do not have the strength I once possessed. That's all.