I just started college this Fall, and it triggered a depressive episode along with really bad anxiety. I decided to try and go on some medications because I knew that was the only way that I would survive this. My previous depressive episode I was able to go inpatient and somehow got it figured out that way, but I do not want to go through that this time, and I also want to graduate college on time, if not earlier. I understand you do not want to go on medication, but in the long run I know it will help me once the meds start to work. Best of luck to you.