I’m very unwell again. I can’t even talk about all that is happening. I want to so badly but I’m so scared. I think I “become” whatever I’m around. I think it might be BPD but doctors said no. I don’t WANT to have it, but fear I do. I absorb others personality I think. Their sickness, stress and other things. Sometimes it positive stuff and sometimes negative. I feel the weight of the worlds pain upon my shoulders. My son has a serious illness and when I would talk to my friend about his medical treatment she would always say “munchaisen by proxy” .....I truly do not believe I caused my sons illness in anyway or used it for attention but perhaps I did without realizing it. I just don’t know anymore. My ex husband has bipolar, most likely my son, mother in law and brother in law. Did I absorb it? Do I have it by proxy? Am I delusional or seeing clearly. I don’t know what to do. I’m so afraid. I’m afraid of this board but I don’t know where to turn so I’m begging for help. Please help me. Please.