The things I have shared have been ongoing for the last ten years. Looking back from where I am now, I can see a lot of red flags that I did not see before. I can finally see the kind of jealousy my mother said was there. It's more about that I simply exist and I can see how my sister really always wanted my parents to herself. I was never much of a counter where I felt a need to know if anyone got more than me of anything.