I'm sorry to bring the mood down but I honestly don't feel well.

Staying on one session a week is hard.

After my last session on thursday- old memories from when I was a 9 year old child started coming back to me. Things I haven't even thought about for almost 10+ years.

R is going on holiday from the 18th to the 1st of December, but my next session would be three days after he comes back. 17 days. I feel silly writing that out- but I expect it to be hard. He offered to see me for one session whilst be was away- would it be wrong of me to accept it even if he was supposed to be away? And at the end of the day I know I won't accept it because it wouldn't feel right doing that to him.

Someone asked me out today, which was a surprise. But I said no- I don't feel very stable and don't really think he knows what he's getting into.