possibly...

maybe im just really ****ed up...

something is really wrong with me...

im going to have a mental breakdown...


not able to face myself any more . . . literally...

so much pressure feeling coming from what others are perceiving of me...

its a bad feeling...
FAKE FRAUD LIAR WEAK UNTRUSTWORTHY STUPID INCOMPETENT on and on ...

and maybe they are right...

no one likes me... i am worthless...
nothing to offer... why would anyone want to be around someone like me...
whats the point... i just try to hide it... and that even causes problems...
whats the point.. what do you do anymore... i cant live this way

i am too split... my mind is broken...
i am so tired... i just want it to stop...