So I return tomorrow to my main job where I was medically discriminated, hostile work environment. One of my coworkers also disclosed my illness which I don’t know how he knows, only told my supervisor and another coworker. Btw this supervisor said I “couldn’t take these mid afternoon evacuations” (referring to iop) and another co worker said thanks and apparently been having discussions about me when I leave. I intend to ask him what is his issue with me.

So I have a plethora of feelings. One and most prevalent is anger and anxiety. I’ve been going through klonopin like crazy this week. I am also feeling ashamed, embarrassed, hated, stigmatized and trying to be ousted. Last iop session I learned what’s the point of holding on to negative emotions, well I’m having a tough time letting this go. I think the letting go part is easier, but the letting people march all over me is not going to go well.