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Old Nov 19, 2017, 01:21 AM
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Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind View Post
Yea - that's why I asked. I realized it could also just be the depression playing in.

I have a feeling (could be wrong) perhaps your depression is part of what is causing some of the stress on the relationship. It may help just to be honest with him. I remember you talking about how understanding he always was before...
He is understanding. He really is. It's just... I can't say what I'm feeling. I can't verbalize how screwed up I am. I'm barely staying alive. And I'm watching everyone, including the love of my life, struggle so much. They don't need the me who can't get out of bed, the me who panics because they walked in front of a mirror or stepped on a crack, the me who can't keep these damn memories out of my head, the me who hasn't stopped formulating a plan and searching for the proper date.

I can't burden any of them with this crap. They know I struggle and it needs to stop there. They're falling apart, Crypts. And I can't stop it. The least I can do is not add onto it.
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