You're a very strong person.

And I understand your reasoning. That's what I believed throughout my time living with my dad. That's why it took me so long to leave, but I did. I met my fiance and so far, nothing's happened. But that's my problem, that "so far" mindset. I'm always waiting for it. From someone, anyone. A part if me, as sick as it may be, actually wants it to happen. I mean, it's how I lived for so long. I'm almost three years out of it and I'm still not used to the lack of chaos I used to know. I know how to live in the chaos. Here, things are too peaceful for me to feel safe.