From what I've read from your posts this is my opinion. I've been in this kind of situation before. It's like you either love me or I'll disappear. These guys are weird. They want to use you as an option. They don't love you. They just treat you like a piece of crap. I've had a long distance relationship where it was on/off relationship but he'd tell me that it's friends with benefits. Oh it'll be official when we kiss but he didn't kiss me on the lips. He had ptsd so I don't know if that plays a part. Even typing this really hurts, it hurts to be played and messed about with. I was too deluded and kept contacting him and that let me being strung along. He even dated girls while he kept talking to me. You shouldn't really force a guy to love you. If he doesn't like you, you should let him go. save your self respect and dignity. You are better than that.