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Originally Posted by happycheeks
From what I've read from your posts this is my opinion. I've been in this kind of situation before. It's like you either love me or I'll disappear. These guys are weird. They want to use you as an option. They don't love you. They just treat you like a piece of crap. I've had a long distance relationship where it was on/off relationship but he'd tell me that it's friends with benefits. Oh it'll be official when we kiss but he didn't kiss me on the lips. He had ptsd so I don't know if that plays a part. Even typing this really hurts, it hurts to be played and messed about with. I was too deluded and kept contacting him and that let me being strung along. He even dated girls while he kept talking to me.
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I donīt feel sad by him calling me inferior/slut etc. In my mind i hear something loving when he says that. I donīt know if thatīs because iīm twisted or because he "programmed" me to view those things as normal and as praise, almost. But it does make me very sad that he doesnīt let me call me by his name. That when we "sext" he never shows me his face even. That he says our interactions need to be secret. That makes me cry. Iīm so dependent on him.