Thinking abou this - difficult - the "fog" is coming in (another ...part i gues... a censoring part) think think think...

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Hard though, as Kiya says about hers, if she's up front and others are doing SI or bad things behind her. But she'd have to not be very strong if she "sees" that happening, thinks it's herself (since she doesn't see or believe in the others) and can't stop or change it even though she's the one who is out? If there are others, stronger, I'd talk to them about switching with her when things get beyond her control? Maybe someone can befriend her like one would a little? Or is she obnoxious in her disbelief so no one wants anything to do with her?

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no - it is just that she was put out front for like 2 decades and therefore thinks she is all there is. like putting a puppet out. it is a sticky topic within. she wasn't really the core - the core was hidden so now the child core and the adult core are integrated, then there are the other parts, the censor, those that do harm, and the one who is no longer "in front" the most. but when she is in front.... she doesn't hear the others. i think perhaps because things have been hidden from her for so long to protect the system. she is not used to hearing them. her senses are deadened from them. i am really numbing out with this topic.... i am glad it is brought up - i think it is good stuff to look at, just censor doesn't want me to know it. i have to fight for every word typed and each one nearly is spelled wrong and i have to fix it.