I´m scared of saying anything bad about him. I don´t want to be mean. Even when i feel hurt i make sure to end my writing with "but he´s amazing and i love him"
I´m a bit worried he´ll find me on here. But i´m using a private browser so i don´t think he will.
So i´ll just write it here. Finally. All the anger and my true opinion of him.

He used to be sweet, yeah. But even when he was sweet he was controlling. What he is doing is bad, and he´s not clueless about it. I KNOW he knows what he is doing to me, and i know he knows it´s bad. He used to talk about how noble he strived to be. Well, now he is the ****ing opposite of noble. What he´s doing is hurtful and wrong and he knows i´m dependent on him. ****, i wish he had the nobility to stop doing this to me.