the past 4 days i have just felt like im at the bottom of a pit. i usually feel okay about myself but now its like im 13 again. we moved out here to this hickass town where people ignore you if youre not exactly like them. so because i dont go tanning all the time and weight 5 lbs people make fun of me. its like im back in middle school.

i guess when we lived in cincinnati there were all kinds of people around. you had to see past a person's exterior because there were just so many people. nobody fit into a stereotype. then we come out here where everyone is the same and its the same stuff all over again. i havent felt this bad about myself in a long time. now its just like im surrounded with people making me feel fat and ugly all the time and i hate it. i wish we could just move. ive lost 10 lbs and i feel worse now than before i lost it. ugh. i hate this place.