i am trying to think n my spiral down into the murky depths of despair n depression i dont think has to do with dsappointment as much as regret...i regret things that have happened and made me this broken caricature of my former self and I don't know how to get out of the perpetual circle going around in my head. I look for little things to keep me going...like my orchid blooming, my bonsai is still green and growing, i washed a few dishes,heck, some days just getting out of bed and taking a shower seems like a HUGE accomplishment. But that is just me. lol and i am an odd one!! ~ melanie